August 31, 2012

Ladies Who Lunch



top: Banana Republic, blazer, clutch: H&M, pants: LOFT, shoes: Ann Taylor, 

Yesterday my mom and I took a much needed break from our busy lives and had long, restful and absolutely delicious lunch. In the little village cafe, while we set outside, it was plain nice to catch up. Mom has been working lots lately and now it's her turn for a trip back to mother land, so I won't see her for about 3 weeks.
While we were sitting around and chatting, it dawned on me - life too short not to savor moments like these. We are so caught up in the little things we have to do, and why we do what we do, that many times we forget the most important things, like family.
 When I am 90 years old and on my death bed, I don't want to have regrets like that. I want to think back to the day when mom and I lunched in a beautiful village cafe on a beautiful summer afternoon. It's the moments like these that take your breath away. 
They make you stop and just enjoy life.

August 30, 2012

From Pooch and I


As you may have noticed, I haven't posted many outfit pictures as of lately. That is not because I lounge in my PJs all day long or don't even want to look at my heels. I get dressed up every day (except Friday), do my hair and make up, and go to work. I teach two times a week and the other days I tutor at the community college. There are plenty of heels in those outfits.
So what's the deal you say? 
I'm starting to feel fat. Yep. That dreaded word, when you waistline is starting to expand and you actually starting to notice it. This would be the time when I pick up 3 mile jogging exercise but not now. 
I'm told to take it easy. To do some walking everyday for 30 minutes, absolutely no dieting and, of course, getting some bigger clothes. 
Easy to say.
Yes, I am happy that the baby growing inside of me is healthy and developing normal. 
Yes, I'm glad to be pregnant with our first child. 
Only at this stage in the game, I don't really have a belly - it's just some fat bulging out.
I don't look particularly slim with a little pooch sticking out but not yet very pregnant, with a nice full belly.
There is nothing more precious then a baby and I know (in mind) that it's all going to be worth it. 
Only right now I can't help but feel hungry half the time and then a little angry at my clothes that are getting a bit snug on me. 
I guess, I haven't thought about the process of growing a baby. You always see these women with bellies sticking out but it doesn't come to mind how much that woman has to go through to get there.
In 20 weeks I will be the one walking like a duck with belly in front of me. 
But until then it's lil poochie and me.


P.S. Currently at 17 weeks pregnant and hormones are running wild. 
You can pretty much never mind all of the above.




August 28, 2012

When It Rains, It Pours


Matthew 5:45

That ye may be the children of your father which is in heaven
For he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good
And sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust

Sometimes you feel like giving up. Moving away. Far away, into a different country where no one knows who you are and there are no heartaches. That's called heaven and we aren't there yet.

Well, where we are is Earth. With its people, unstable economies, unknown future, and unbearable heartache. I really cannot go into much detail, but life here hasn't been easy the past year. It has been completely opposite of easy - struggles.
It isn't pretty and it isn't fair, but it is what it is.

Life is hard kids. It doesn't warn you, there is no sign "bumps ahead"  - it just strikes against all odd, against all understanding and we are left standing alone. Alone in cold pouring rain. 
But I am not alone. I know God. I do not understand any of it. I feel like I'm buried in trials and there is no end, but somewhere in the mess that my life is now - God has an answer. He has a plan.

It's hard to go through pain knowing that God in His foreknowledge planned it. Why would He? I know why, just don't want to admit it.
God knew what to put into my path for one reason - to soften my heart. To make me better.

So after it's all set and done, even if I don't see His plan, even if I won't ever understand,
God has me in His hands.


August 26, 2012

Live and Learn



blouse: Banana Republic, skirt: Talbots, shoes, clutch: H&M

I bet you guys thought I'm going to talk about some profound statement that I found, judging by the title of this post. Well, there are other ways to learn stuff, like by experience. And there are two things that I can tell you:
  1. Taking pictures in the broad daylight won't give good results. All the shades of pink are going to look exactly the same or almost white. Yes, this outfit was supposed to be pretty pink 
  2. Sometimes it's good to listen to your hubby when he says that the light is too direct and it's going to ruin my picture. {Don't tell him I said that}
Take it from someone who's stubborn and determined to prove herself. Learning lessons the hard way (a.k.a by experience) is not fun. Be that how/when to take pictures or when just learn to shut up - learning by banging your head against something hard isn't fun. So next time, just go ahead and listen to that advice your grandma/hubby/mother/pastor is giving to ya. It may save you lots of frustration.
 And camera footage in my case.
Have yourself a great week!

August 24, 2012

Lady in Black {polka dot}



dress: Vintage, flats: J.Crew Factory, cardigan: Loft, jewelry: gift from hubby
What should I tell you? 
Should I tell you that I was nervous and yet so excited to start teaching this week? Or that this vintage thrifted dress was a great find? Or maybe that life is so busy, that I haven't even gotten a chance to look at anything baby related yet? Well, that's all part of my life right now.
At sixteen weeks, I still can't believe that it's true. Haha. I know, you better believe it lady! There is just so much to think about! So many parenting books to read and so many decorating ideas to brainstorm. Yet, with my new job, I'm completely immersed into everything that has to do with Math and teaching. I hope, as the semester will go on and things settle down, I will be able to go to Babies R Us and maybe check out the J.Crew Baby section.
 Until then, it's house hunting and trying to stay above the water with all the papers I need to grade
Enjoy these last days of summer!
Have a wonderful weekend!







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